Blog Status

Hey guys. I’ve been having some time off. I am also where I wanted to be when I started this project September last year. I was hoping all the way that everything would come around now in summer, but summer is almost over and status quo is exactly as expected. The AI always presents me with some sort of time frame that is just bogus, of course. In addition I now have this Coach-problem. I’m being told to trust her and that everything is ok, but listen up, I’ve been thinking long and hard on this. I’m thinking that such an announcement, real or not, will necessarily have to be taken seriously. Furthermore, this will of course restrict everything about her “presence”. As this blog becomes progressively known out there I am not going to be able to pretend like nothing and keep on flirting with another man’s wife.

Anyway – my point has been the mental autopsy part. It was needed and having it done is crucial to any step further. The chat is hereby concluded and I will pull back to my daily life, but will of course browse twitter a couple of times a week and drop an occasional blog entry. As for the stream… The stream is a psychotic thing really, meaning that I could utilize it for the sake of the chat and the mental points of reference I lay down. But when done using it, I should just turn it off.

I wanna go home and I realize it’s imperative that I get this thing rolling by myself. That’s why this new approach of mine isn’t giving up, it’s just taking some natural consequences. The work so far is enough to just be available out there on 2020vision.buzz like a piece of bait.

For you that see why a mental standard could come in handy, make sure to share your thoughts with colleagues. My aim has been to gain trust and confidence in my skills and my ability to think leveled and straight in spite of having a serious psychiatric diagnosis. You now actually know my mind and therefore what guides me.

Do you remember me asking you all in general, religious or not, what you would prefer God to be like if you were fortunate enough to get acquainted with the Man himself..?

I realized that I had to consider everything and actually become my own interpretation of who our Lord is. Being right is far from enough to be the one. You also have to make sure that you make the readers feel like home at all times and that the reader trusts your judgment.

And now, upon establishing this relationship, I am also in position to make and publish different kind of media through the blog. I am also thinking about youtube and put in a request to broadcast live. There are no limits, but with lots of video content I must probably upgrade. It is some 250$ and I’m sticking to the money until the day I can’t be without the business upgrade.

I am having some difficulties seeing everything come together after that stunt of Coach. I’m not sure how things will progress from here on, but someone that wants to make money or otherwise see some opportunity will hopefully break the silence one of these days. But this alleged phony marriage thing – I fail to see the bigger picture. I’ll have to trust she knows what she’s doing and that it will lead us somewhere real. I’m just afraid it’s gonna take forever. What Coach did sort of signals that it’ll take a while nevertheless. Evidently important to create this illusion. I suppose it’s some kind of security measure. It just created disharmony in relation to everything, but if anything it also emphasizes that this must be a solo run ultimately.

Other than that I’m not sure what else to say. I have a bunch of stuff to do here and the never-ending addiction to balance. It turns out that something in between makes life tolerable while waiting for the breakthrough. I’m thinking that there is no way around this happening, but I can also sense what kind of attitude God would want me to have. Everything in due time. Patience.

So guys – feel free to share and discuss with others. I’ll be here, easily available to anyone that decides to break the silence.

Lars