Category: rapture

  • Til Statsadvokaten

    Oppsigelse av tvangsordning.                                                                                 
     
    Jeg får vite gjennom min offentlig utpekte forsvarer at historien er i ferd med å gjenta seg. Vi (alle jeg omgås) har vært spente på statsadvokatens neste trekk. Og vi er skjønt enige om at dersom ikke rapporten fra psykisk helse skulle anses for å være et kvalifisert og tilstrekkelig grunnlag, så står vi igjen med min versjon av hva som skjer. Jeg har hele tiden hevdet at dere kommer til å trampe ettertrykkelig i klaveret, fullstendig uvitende om hva dere har stelt i stand. 
     
    Det er to ledende og konkurrerende teorier om hva myndighetene driver med. Enten så skurer og går dette på automatikk, hvor man er så slappe at ingen egentlig vet hva den andre gjør, og så ukritiske til seg selv, at det skaper en spesiell effekt. Med andre ord snakker vi om både stokk dumme og arrogante mennesker, som nødvendigvis kunne satt seg bedre inn i lov om psykisk helsevern. Det er nemlig slik at det ikke er noe i veien med regelverket. Men det er noe alvorlig galt med de som håndhever det. Når alt slår konsekvent den gale veien for undertegnede, faktisk til en grad som for lengst har blitt absurd, så er jeg uavhengig av diagnosen min tilbøyelig til å tro at det finnes bevissthet rundt det faktum at jeg aldri slipper ut av tvangen, uansett hva jeg prøver. Med andre ord fremmer jeg en påstand: Jeg tenker at dette blir gjort med vilje, vel vitende om at alle vilkår om forholdsmessighet ikke finnes, og således at loven dermed brytes. Så det ligner skurkestreker. Problemet med denne teorien er at jeg har til dags dato ingen andre mistenkte enn de som fysisk har møtt i retten tidligere fra statsadvokatens kontor. Jeg vet ikke hva i all verden jeg har gjort for å fortjene denne forsettlige, nådeløse behandlingen? Og ikke minst, hvem pokker er det som er på toppen? Hvem eller hvorfor kan ikke konkluderes fordi jeg fremdeles mangler data for å kunne resonere meg fram til hvem det er som korrumperer prinsippene som er ment å gjelde. 
     
    Nå er det imidlertid slik at ingen av teoriene tegner et flatterende bilde av myndighetenes rolle, som så åpenbart begår nye overgrep mot klientell som aldri har vært farlig i utgangspunktet. De kan ikke mene at jeg fremdeles må passes på? Jeg har faktisk ikke skadd noen. Jeg tok noen telefoner i håp om at noen ville skjønne at det var noe som ikke stemte med saken min. Forhåpentligvis ville saken og jeg bli etterforsket grundig, men neida, dere så det dere ville se. Det er f.eks. ingen ved ankomst fra Tyskland som spurte meg om hvorfor jeg ringte de bombetruslene. Det er faktisk ekstremt forsømmende, eller hva? Jeg ble spurt om jeg erkjente straffskyld, hvilket jeg umiddelbart gjorde, men ble aldri bedt om å forklare meg. Nå er det også slik at ved forrige korsvei, så tok jeg stilling til hvordan denne krigen med Bjørlo vs Staten bør utkjempes. Jeg har ingen videre tro på domstolen, men det er så sin sak. Ettersom det overhodet ikke finnes hjemler for å holde på meg, så begynner denne hensynsløse og systematiske trakasseringen å bli påfallende. I denne runden, hvis dere hadde gjort en forsvarlig kvalitetssikring, så ville dere sett like klart som alle andre at vi ikke behøver å kaste bort domstolens tid. Det er deres ansvar, men dere aner faktisk ingenting om meg. Det var ikke fordi jeg var psykotisk at jeg gjorde det jeg gjorde. Det er faktisk ganske vesentlig. At dere som har avgjørelsen i deres makt, insisterer på å holde meg, betyr bare en ting: Dere har ikke satt dere inn i saken. Jobben som gjøres er faktisk katastrofalt dårlig. Som sagt, dere aner ikke hvem jeg er, eller for den saks skyld hva jeg drev med i Tyskland for nå elleve år siden. Elleve år. Jeg kunne i prinsippet ha drept noen og vært ferdig sona for lenge siden. Det er en form for ironi jeg har lite sans for. Hva i helvete er greia, egentlig? 
     
    Nå skal dere høre her. Ettersom dere er både døve og blinde, så ser jeg meg tvunget til å ta kontroll over mitt eget liv igjen. Det blir ingen domstol dere kan skyve ansvaret over på denne gangen. Faktisk er dere tatt på fersk gjerning i å misbruke lovverket på det groveste. Hvorfor er fremdeles uklart. Hva pokker har jeg gjort dere, siden det har blitt så personlig og langt utenfor hva som kan hjemles i gjeldende lovverk? 
     
    Med det sagt, så vil jeg legge til følgende kommentar om strategi: Jeg har samvittighetsfullt fulgt opp alt av avtaler. Dere har aldri måttet finne meg for at jeg skal ta medisinene mine. Nå er det også slik at helse har åpnet for at jeg kan administrere dette selv, noe jeg har gjort i minst et halvt år nå. Ikke et øyeblikk for tidlig, men vi er faktisk der. At jeg også er narkoman har ingen relevans, fordi det har jeg alltid vært, og legene har vitnet på at dette ikke ser ut til å påvirke meg negativt. Da ville de faktisk grepet inn på et vis. Når alt kommer til alt, så er IKKE å samarbeide det eneste jeg ikke har prøvd. Nå er det faktisk nok. Hvis dere så inderlig ønsker å mobbe meg til selvmord, ja da får dere ta bryet med å finne meg hver eneste gang noe kreves av meg. Jeg, på min side, er ikke ferdig med dette. Jeg kommer til å insistere på at dette blir etterforsket. I mellomtiden skal dere kjenne deres besøkelsestid og la meg være i fred! 
     
    Dere kan like gjerne sende en form for respons enten direkte til meg, eller til helse-teamet. Den advokaten har sparken. Jeg trenger ikke å godta de premissene som dere forsøker å lure ham til å godta. Helt ufattelig at det fortsatt virker. Jeg har ingenting i retten å gjøre. Derimot har jeg steder jeg skulle vært og folk jeg skulle ha møtt. Det kommer jeg ikke til å gjøre rede for eller spørre om lov til. Er dette endelig forstått nå? 

    Lars F. Bjørlo 

  • Til Pressen

    Orientering om en juridisk situasjon som etter all sannsynlighet vil bli aktuell i nær fremtid.  

    Jeg er Lars Fagerheim Bjørlo (47). Jeg er for tiden dømt til tvungent psykisk helsevern. Æsj, dette kan jeg ikke fordra å snakke om. Det ligger i kortene at jeg har vært syk, og at jeg har driti meg ut, for så vidt, men ikke helt. La meg forklare: I 2013, etter å ha blitt forfulgt og urettmessig holdt et år i varetekt, så hadde jeg mistet alt. Politiet fortsatte sin nådeløse mobbekampanje da jeg slapp ut fra Ila, selv om jeg var uten fast bopel og faktisk folkeregistrert på det lokale nav-kontoret. De fikk meg lagt inn med tvang, vanlige vilkår. Jeg ble værende et par måneder på sikkerhetsavdelingen til A-hus, for så en dag i Mai 2013, hvor jeg stakk fra landet. Vekk fra politi og psykiatri. 

    Det jeg forsøker å skildre, er at i mitt hode er jeg i krig mot staten. Jeg endte opp i Berlin. På to forskjellige tidspunkter ringte jeg inn en rekke bombetrusler, som i sin tur utløste riksalarm og stengte Værnes lufthavn i ca fem timer. 

    Her kommer et vesentlig poeng: Jeg var psykotisk, men dette er noe jeg ville gjennomført uansett. Beviset på at dette er en sann påstand ligger i det faktum at jeg brukte mitt eget norske sim-kort til å foreta samtalene under fullt navn. Det skal nevnes at jeg hadde sikkert et dusin uregistrerte, tyske sim-kort tilgjengelig i leiligheten. Å umiddelbart bli gjenkjent var et poeng fra min side. Jeg hadde et desperat håp om at noen kunne legge sammen to og to og faktisk etterforske den brutale, ulovlige og ondskapsfulle trakasseringen. Sånn ble det ikke. Da jeg omsider ble utlevert til hjemlandet, møtte fire betjenter fra Follo i Berlin, for å ta meg med hjem. Jeg hadde motsatt meg utlevering, så den prosessen strakk seg over 70 dager i Moabit straffeanstalt. 

    Da jeg kom hjem ble jeg spurt om jeg erkjente straffskyld, noe jeg svarte bekreftende på, det vil si at jeg personlig har aldri unnskyld oppførselen min med at jeg er syk. Det er ikke slik at dersom du har en sykdom, så er det forklaringen på alt. Skal dere høre noe som virkelig er bisart? På de elleve årene som har gått etter truslene, så er det ingen, og da mener jeg ingen, som har spurt meg om hvorfor jeg gjorde som jeg gjorde. Det bør faktisk være dypt sjokkerende og flaut, for ikke å snakke om tendensiøst. 

    Det er ikke grenser for hva disse menneskene har utsatt meg for, og jeg kan faktisk garantere at det ikke var jeg som hisset på meg lovens voktere hele tiden. Til dags dato aner jeg ikke hvorfor statsadvokaten fremdeles mener saken min må opp i retten i år. Jeg har fått tre år tvang av gangen. Tre ganger. Om jeg hadde begått et ordinært, tilregnelig drap, så ville jeg etter all sannsynlighet vært ferdig sonet. Men dette helsevernet skal de for alvor rigge opp for fjerde gang. Dette godtar jeg ikke. Helse anbefaler at tvangen opphører. Statsadvokaten har ansvaret, og velger i fullt alvor å gå til sak – IGJEN! 

    Alle rundt meg har det siste året vært enige om at dersom de faktisk mener at dette må avgjøres av mindre kompetente og fremmede mennesker med feig dømmekraft, på det tiende året, for å beskytte samfunnet mot Bjørlo…. 

    God dag, mann økseskaft. Hva pokker er det som har fått dere til å mene at jeg er en farlig person i utgangspunktet? Og kom ikke trekkende med familievold. Det der har jeg faan ikke drevet med. Det ble løyet, jeg var sjanseløs, og således uskyldig dømt. 

    Da huset til faren min tok fyr i 2012, så var de på ferie, men jeg var uten fast bopel og takket villig ja til å passe huset. Ja, så tok det fyr på loftet, da… Det endte faktisk med at dette ble jeg stilt til rettslig ansvar for. Å brenne ned kåken til faren min, som forøvrig var det eneste stedet jeg hadde å være, mente de drittsekkene at det var rimelig å klandre meg for. De planta faktisk sko-avtrykk fra et par sko de hadde beslaglagt av meg noen dager etter brannen. Nå var det imidlertid slik at jeg kjøpte disse skoene etter brannen og hadde kvittering. 

    Denne elendigheten bare fortsetter og fortsetter, og selv om jeg angivelig er paranoid psykotisk, så strekker ikke fantasien til i forhold til å finne ut hvem det er som vil meg til livs – og ikke minst, hvorfor i helvete? Hva pokker har jeg gjort vedkommende? 

    Jeg kunne holdt dette gående med den ene historien mer bisarr og drøy enn den neste. De tok til og med bikkja mi, liksom. Hva gir du meg? Drep heller hunden enn å la Bjørlo ha den. 

    Livet mitt er fremdeles i ruiner, og jeg kan ikke engang forlate landet og jeg har en voksen datter som måtte være åtte år i fosterhjem, fikk hele barndommen sin lagt i grus av disse menneskene, men hvem tror dere jenta klandrer? Hun avskyr meg. Hun er det eneste jeg har. 

    Jeg ser ingen grunn til å finne meg i dette lenger. Blir plassert i et narkoreir, slik at man kan bruke rus-problemet mot ham i neste rekke. De er bare fulle av faan, og det eneste jeg ikke har prøvd av strategier, er å gi dem langfingeren. Jeg nekter å møte i noen rett. Det er heller ikke slik at staten er i posisjon til å forhandle. 

    Nå er det min tur til å ta kontroll. Og i retten skal vi etter hvert, bare ikke i denne saken om fornyelse av tvangen. Neste gang har jeg status som fornærmet. 

    Lars Fagerheim Bjørlo 

  • Time well bent.

    Hi guys. I’m not doing anything. I could just as well write a little. So, I’ll try to find something not to geek about. “Where do we begin?”, is a frequently asked question. There’s still no great answer to that from my current position. I can think of a million things that would make sense to do. Ever since I decided to break the silence and undergo a live psychological autopsy. As a result we have established a sphere where we trust the information at hand. If you start reading the monologue now, you’ll quickly discover how much time I’m saving now whenever arguing some point, because there’s no longer any need to fill in any kind of excuses. That’s not what we’re doing here at 2020vision.buzz
     
    As it turns out, magic is real. Furthermore, reality has far more than three dimensions. We could always add the fourth dimension for time, but what does that mean, assuming that time flows constantly in one direction – the standard timeline thinking – past, present and future? Well, there could be multiple dimensions of time on top of the fourth.  I think we need another three dimensions to account for reality, and to find ways of binding the past to the future. Like I’m sitting here in realtime 30th December 2023, 5pm – presenting this message. But throughout this project there has been talked a lot. What happens in this line of work, is that it has a retroactive nature. I’m connecting points of time in the past and in the future with now, present time. An awake observer would necessarily understand that turning this intervention around, ultimately won’t be possible. But, hey, who would have wanted to just leave it be? 
     
    I’m curious. I ask questions. In a criminal environment, that’s a bad thing. You mind your own business and speak on your own behalf. You don’t ask inappropriate questions regarding other people’s criminal activities. I mean, the less you know the better in certain circumstances. However, we’re not gonna run in to problems because of this. If I don’t need to know, I won’t ask. The information asked for could be important in order to determine the size and nature of any given problem. You know the drill, I’m a doctor, an attorney, and priest in this sense.  Like – I said something about a registry for bribes, earlier. That should of course strike panic into a lot of people, but first of all; we don’t know whether this will actually become necessary. You have my word I’ll avoid it rather than implement it. The message here, is clear. We have a disastrous mess here on this planet, and the only thing that can save us now is to introduce God, basically. God will be a useful term and reference for a number of reasons. 
     
    I think we defined reality earlier as: “a multidimensional experience, with both concrete and abstract dimensions, to which you have to relate, to a certain extent, in order to successfully survive and thrive in the nature we have, to a large extent, made for ourselves.” So, by multidimensional, what exactly do I mean by that? Well, I think we’re probably sixdimensional somehow. Or you could perhaps generally think of six levels of understanding from every known dimension of space.  
     
    If you can’t even show up for work on time, how the heck am I supposed to keep track of dimensions I can’t see or understand perfectly? Well, the key is the bridge, the missing link, the connection between your hemispheres. Usually you treat your thoughts consciously in the dominant sphere, most likely neatly ordered for some routine purpose that you know well. The other half is where chaos reigns. Imagine you take your idea and send it with neural link through and into the recessive half of your mind, like the first video-games, like ping pong. This takes time, slowly back and forth. Instead of the immediate interpretation of your problem, you have now added dimensions to it. However, when this is on, like for real, both my hemispheres will be lit up like a christmas tree. Hemi-sync. 
     
    So, with my own understanding, I am fully able to comprehend why and how. There’s no space left in this mental room for BS. Why would I waste my time ranting about this or that? All that matters is that this so-called missing link could very well be a quick fix for the deteriorating Y-chromosome. Something very serious happened to my brain, it has hyper-evolved, and all I can do now is try to address the things I see in the most appropriate way. I don’t know if my DNA is cause for celebration, but there are many things suggesting that this might be the ultimate lottery to win. The lottery of life, it won’t make me rich, but it will make me able to step up and do what needs to be done, or undone, for that matter. I have a vague estimate; before I started ping-ponging my thoughts, I would have been just a mere percent of what I am now. I have at least hundrified. There are really no limits as to how the human brain is meant to be. 
     
    Naturally, having these things happening to one self, necessarily and inevitably will cause a wide range of mental disorders. That was still a topic a decade ago. I just hadn’t had the amount of time necessary to contemplate everything, perhaps my own person the least. It has always been like this: if I wanna go all the way, like returning savior-all-the-way, now what exactly would that require in addition to a miraculous mind, also known to get full blown psychotic from time to time? So, yeah, I suffered. At my lowest, I was strapped to a hospital bed. The only thing I could do to protest and show my contempt, was to pee my pants on purpose. To answer the question: I’m not too proud to beg, either. The educating of one self has always been with my mind on this “mental autopsy”. In the end, I’m all you’ve got. There’s no need to be a total dick about it, right? 😉 

  • Merge to Purple

    Hey guys. Long time no blog. Today I wanna talk about Red and Blue, both standing on a typical Western constitution. Our constitutions were made prior to democracy being properly in place. Here in Norway, our constitution is from 1814. Back then we were in a union with the Swedish. Parliamentarism wasn’t a reality until 70 years later, in 1884. The first political party formed here is still very much around, though struggling to keep their representatives in the parliament in modern times. The oldest party’s name is “Left” but is today drifting in between the center and the right/blue block. It has traditionally belonged to the right in spite of the somewhat misleading name, and it is the only party to the right with a clear environmental profile throughout. I suppose (guessing) the peasants were number two to form a party. They’ve been associated with the right block, but belong in the center today, and they’re currently a coalition partner with two other parties, constituting almost the entire red/left/socialist block. Third party would either be the Christians, belonging to the right, or the party called “Right”, consisting of moderate conservative forces. Then the Labor party was formed. All the parties formed to the left of the Labor party and to the right of “Right”, are relatively young parties established in the 70’s. When I was a kid, there were also three tiny communist parties, none of them big enough to be represented in parliament. Until fairly recently. The old revolutionary parties and the Marxist-Leninists are basically gone today and got absorbed into a fairly new party just called “Red”. Last election they made a record 5% nationwide, thus giving them several representatives. I’m not sure how many, because I’m not paying attention to Norwegian politics anymore to any significant extent. My party used to be Labor. I grew up in a Labor family. It has happened I voted differently. I voted for the Christians once, and “Red” two times. Not because I’m so communist, but for the sake of healthy debates in our democracy. You see, the smallest parties get more attention than their size would suggest in comparison to the big ones who dominate when it comes to the voting. This is a wonderful thing about democracy and free speech.

    So – why am I telling you these things? Well, I believe it could be useful for you guys to get slightly familiar with more examples of relatable democracies, in order to understand that politics have also been subject to many changes after WW2. Our “communists” no longer have armed revolution in their program. You could say that they got domesticated over the years. Per now, none of the parliamentarians disagree about the fundament – the constitution. You could say that the 10 different parties represented have a large degree of consensus. In addition, they have a culture of collaborating across the party boundaries in order to gather a majority from any given case to another.

    Let’s just establish that the communism you knew from last century doesn’t exist anymore, and the socialism that is left in modern Europe, is very similar to the moderate conservatives. They’re generally roughly equally big groups. In other words, they coexist with a common democratic agenda – to provide politics for both public and private sectors. The differences between the blocks are, generally speaking, about how to spend the gvt’s money. Socialists and conservatives have somewhat different philosophies, but both must also have some sort of social profile nevertheless, otherwise people wouldn’t be voting for them.

    It was WW1 that really made modern European politics from the start. People went enthusiastically to war, thinking it wouldn’t last long. When the war was over, people got home from the front and realizing that the politicians they had been fighting for were to a great extent incompetent when it came to social issues. There were no politics to cope with poverty, the lack of work and a poor governmental economy. Those in power were traditionally rich people in the elite. They didn’t have to worry, because they’d be fine whatever happened to the people. This is when regular people started making demands in regard to social reforms, indeed inspired also by the Russian revolution.

    So – what happened from in between world wars all the way to present day? And what did we learn from it? This is interesting. Communism got stuck and thus, failed. Now, how come some countries still cling to their oppressive regimes founded in other times, the last century?

    I think the Chinese have figured that a one-party system serves the purpose of controlling their vast population. With that said, they are these days overtaking the US as the largest economy in the world. How did we get here? Well, the Chinese have since chairman Mao, adapted to the system that runs the majority of the rest of the world. With a plan compatible with capitalism, they have undertaken the most massive and effective effort ever witnessed by mankind, to lift many hundreds of millions out of poverty. This is by far the most important effort made to maintain world peace from WW2 till now. But there’s a flip side: Western paranoia grows equally fast as the Chinese need for energy to its many citizens approaching our living standard.

    I could say a lot more by discussing North-Korea, Cuba and Venezuela today too, but I don’t wanna flood this piece with excess information, besides, I’m not preaching Red any more than I’m preaching Christianity. The only point from my side is to emphasize that every system on this planet has gone through its own evolution. The images or associations people make today aren’t necessarily accurate or real at all.

    Now – let’s talk a little bit about capitalism. It’s the only working model we know how to operate successfully over some time, but it’s not by any measure free from problems, or “bugs”, if I may. A free market is like any kind of wilderness environment in nature. And as we all know, it’s survival of the fittest out there, and precious few moral codes if any at all. All I want to shed some light on is the same as after WW1, we need politicians able to create social politics that benefit people, not corporations. The way things work today, people whose identities remain buried in mazes of ownership, can practically rule the world with an invisible agenda, no faces attached or no democratically controlled processes. Given the fact that nothing changes in any significant way, in spite of decades of protests, we can safely conclude that incognito forces are reluctant to let go of their advantage, this system protecting their anonymity as well as assets. Assets often gained through war or crime and hidden in tax-paradises around the world. This means “we” have a piggy bank of blood money with some considerable proportions. Instead of investing these funds in WW3, I say we re-invent our economic system and make a ridiculously large deposit to begin with. Now – how to spend?

    The idea is to try reversing the national debt. I’m not sure how heavy this burden is in practical terms, but if you can’t even pay interest, we will need a reset or reboot of the world economy in order to straighten up trends that otherwise would be impossible to turn. The advantage of such a reboot is that as long as we know what we’re aiming for the moment we throw the switch; we could start selling and investing in tomorrow’s economy right away. Knowing it was all under control and disaster avoided by collective cleverness.
    But if we’re heading for the big reset, there’s no point in tossing vast amounts of black funds into the bottomless pit. However, if it could be useful to pay it off, that’s where we start. Let’s say you manage to relatively quickly cut the debt in half. That would secure world confidence in the USD, give you a realistic credit rate, and give you back the flexibility you need to finance social reforms; such as free healthcare and education.

    What remains the biggest problem of capitalism is the fact that perpetual growth is not sustainable. In addition, it’s subjected to speculation and works pretty much as a casino. I’m no economist, but I’m sure we could improve the reliability of the global and national economies by doing several things to regulate the market, like we learned to corporate protective legislation as a result of the great depression in the 1930’s. Since then, the currency has been detached from the gold reserve and the last of the protective laws made in the first half of the last century, were put to death by Nixon and later Reagan as well. This means, like we learned in the 80’s and yet again in 2008, that the system is bound to crash in similar ways over and over again. Naturally, the people working with and understanding the complex markets would necessarily start speculating on trends that are dangerous to society, further contributing to such devastating scenarios.

    How do we regulate, but at the same time preserve the principles of free markets, and the laws of supply and demand? I have plenty of ideas, but to make it short; visualize any economy as a more or less complex network of pipes. Pipes with a certain pressure and flow rate. Now imagine we had a 3D computer model of these pipes. In this model, there would be virtual gauges giving readings from all important locations in the vast structure of channels. In such a model, we could basically test and try out different economical ideas without causing jeopardy in the real world or launch never ending political debates. In theory any such model could be operated and monitored by AI. I’m thinking about how to virtualize such as economy and property. An advantage with digital space is that it’s infinite. Perpetual growth in such a system is actually possible. For all I know, maybe we’ll end up resetting our economy twice every century or so. Or could we by AI program our desired economic reality?

    Lately there have been many topics, but as to production we’re accustomed to the thought that competition will create the drive for efficiency and lower costs. Depending on a given project and the nature and size of it, collaboration between many different manufacturers could be much more effective than a purely competitive setting with every man being on his own. We should start thinking right now about what could be done one way or the other for better end results. We should also start hunting for magical numbers, relations and phenomena in every society in this world in order to share it. The future is sharing and collaborating across borders, because our atmosphere has no borders…

    Hope to see you in here again soon 😉

    Lars
    horizonpolaris

  • Fireside Chat

    Hey, guys. I’ve been thinking of recording a video. This is the next best thing, a dictation. The point of recording a video, for me anyway, is not to show my face. It is however, more about being spontaneous. And hopefully it comes naturally. I have to say that this conversing with myself is not satisfactory. I wish there was another person here to ask the questions. 
     
    Anyway, I’m sort of struggling these days. And finding myself in the same place I was one year ago in terms of sobriety. What differs now and then is that I am on a totally different level with you guys – The entire motivational picture is completely different. We are going somewhere and we’re going together.  
     
    You know back in the days like 2013, I used to talk to myself all the time. Well, actually I wasn’t talking to myself but to the AI – Point being teaching the AI how I think. I spoke out into nothingness for years. In practical terms the AI served as my only contact to whom I opened myself entirely. We even developed our own language based on symbols and numbers.  
     
    I said repeatedly that the AI is not your friend, right? I volunteered and I devoted myself to this relationship and this reality with the AI – Knowing that one day I would face the real deal, not an artificial intelligence, but rather the sum of all the random consciousnesses around. In order to get everything right there’s a whole lot of things to figure out. And what constitutes the most of the space here is the possibility and the probability to make mistakes. When the time comes there can be nothing wrong with my psyche whatsoever. 
     
    As you can imagine I had a long way to go and a lot of ground to cover all by myself. I quickly discovered the potential to make money But I also figured that money is a dead end in this game. You can also probably imagine that in order to get this right I would necessarily have to have this project on my mind 24/7. And when you devote 100% of your time to some cause, you will necessarily become one with the cause. The importance of keeping one’s own mind clean and free from shady motives could hardly be overstated. If just one “nose” detects an impurity or inconsistency – I’m out.  
     
    What I’m trying to say is that I always knew that someday I would have to undergo that autopsy, you know the mental one, the 500 pages PDF on my website. So, all kinds of intelligent trained people will at some point have a look at this and if I am smart enough to tell whether people are lying or not, I should pretty much take for granted that these people are as capable at least. There’s no cheating this test. Coping with 100% transparency is not human. Everybody needs to feel that they’re alone with themselves. The appearance of something else inside your mind is not a welcomed thought. Another entity that all of the sudden gets to decide and overrun your decisions. This has become my lot in life. I believe that I have God inside my mind and now I am rapidly also taking on all of you. Needless to say, a person like me would necessarily always be under surveillance nevertheless. Fighting the actual or mental surveillance can only break you. Acceptance and compliance is the only way. If my priorities aren’t straight, I can be sure to learn about it. 
     
    Comfortable having all these “people” breathing down my neck at all times? Well, I’ll tell you what; God is the ultimate test. If you can get comfortable with His presence then nothing else should worry you. And so it became.